Reckless 4 Jesus

Reckless 4 Jesus – You Don’t Always Have to Speak, Fix, or Do

All my life I’ve trained to be a role model, a problem solver. I used to think not having anything to say or help the situation made me useless, but that may just be what makes me a good friend. Someone who is there, just present. Sometimes that’s more comforting than anything.

 Last year I spent a lot of time trying to lead others to Christ. Jesus changed my life, He gave me something to live for. I wanted everybody to experience that and it almost drove me crazy. I was so focused on strategizing and coming up with ways to explain myself, prove myself to people, that I lost shape of who Jesus really wanted me to be. 

 Without knowing it at the time, I was fighting against God to mold people into religious frauds. People who are always happy, positive, and stand tall and strong. People who don’t need support, but are always the one to give it. People who always have answers and are willing to voice them. I was attempting to build an army against God the entire time and I didn’t even realize it! Thank goodness He was aware of my intentions and I failed miserably at doing so. This isn’t how people are supposed to be, I had it all backwards.

 I always tried to dodge any kind of heartbreak, I mean who willingly embraces pain? But you can’t truly and fully love someone until you know all of the bad, see all of the bad, and go through all of the bad. It’s like plugging a math equation into a calculator and hitting equal to confirm that your answer is right; those moments confirm and strengthen all of those feelings inside of you.

 The things that you’re scared of breaking you are the things that can actually bind you together. I think this is  because when your heart begins to break, you start to see the pieces closer and what you’re really made of. You see the pure and natural beauty in yourself. 

 Honesty is refreshing, especially when you’ve been putting on an act all day. (Ex- Telling yourself that you’re perfect, you have it all figured out, nothings bothering you or is wrong in life, etc) 

So yeah I guess I was trying to avoid pain at first, but what really led to this army against God was my underestimation of love.

 Love is an action but I was using all of the wrong verbs like: Do, go, talk, preach, fix. 

 When I should’ve been using more of: listen, rest, sit, hug, and hold. 

 2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭NLT‬‬ — “Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”